Personal 125

Sometimes I think I lack emotion or maybe say unnecessary things and it seems perfectly fine to me =S I need change my ways I think because certain relationships I have with people may fall apart due to this disorder I have lool :( Like somehow at times I find that only I get me & it's weird because I find everything perfectly normal. Am I to straight up or just too mean? Subhan'Allah I hope that 2nd one is never the case cause that it isn't a good trait. Safest thing that I can do right now is just always stay quiet. I want long healthy relationships w/ friends and not have them hate me or dislike me =S but then again everyone changes & not all people you know will end up to be around in the future & not everyone likes you as much as they did when they first met you...Wallahu Alam I'm still growing alhamdulilah & I thank Allah for any experience that I find on my path in life ..& I have alot to learn. I just hope and ask Allah to make those around me patient & understand that I'm growing and trying to perfect myself . Alhamdulilahi Rabbil Alimeen :)